Calm

My scan showed “no remarkable growth” since February—which means Lloyd has done nothing. I am back in my cone of relative sanity for another eight weeks! Actually, to be more accurate, it is more like seven weeks of sanity. The eighth week is all character-building.

Dr. G told us today that Lloyd is still “rock solid,” that he pulled up my last three scans to compare to this scan (giving him a total of eight months to look at) and saw “no remarkable growth” in any of them, and then proceeded to tell us that Lloyd “will grow some day, as sure as the three of us are sitting here now.” Well, what can I say—I’ve gotten used to him. We actually laughed a little on the way home about it. This, in itself, is remarkable. There was a time when that statement would have sent tears streaming down my face immediately and depressed me for days. Now I can (almost always) take it for what it is—a possibility. And I have many, many possibilities!

Thank you all for you kind, kind words of love and support this week. You have all helped my heart –again! –more than I imagined. The photo below is from this afternoon at the Hopkins campus (a beautiful place to spend the day, frankly). The sun is streaming down on me and I am beaming. Interestingly, it is before I got my good news. I kind of imagine it being all of you and your good thoughts and wishes streaming down onto me, as silly as some may think that is. Either way, it is a beautiful spring day with one very happy girl—whichever way her news was going to go.

Love, -Kristina